How Do I know

How do i know. How do i know what you dont tell me. How do i know what to do. How do i fix what i dont know is wrong. You ask why i dont tell you things or why do i lie to you. I dont lie, i tell you what you want to hear. I dont want to fight, you told me you wanted something else, that someone else made you happier. I want you to be happy so i tell you i dont care because i would do and say anything to stay apart of your life. I love seeing you the first thing in the morning and the moment i walk through the door after work and the last thing before i go to bed. I dont want to be not there. You ask me why i and yelling, because sometimes i feel like you just dont hear me. Sometimes i feel like i dont matter, at least how i feel doesn't. You ask why i dont tell you how i feel, everytime i start to you make me feel guilty because you get upset or tell me i'm making you feel bad. I'm just trying to be honest, but that seems to get me nowhere, and you get upset when you find out that i have not been completly honest about how i feel. I try to tell you the best way i know how through the things i write but you dont see that for what it is, do you realize what my tattoo means to me. I dont even care anymore if you understand what you mean to me i am tired of trying so hard to tell you and feeling like you just dont care.