How Do I know

How do i know. How do i know what you dont tell me. How do i know what to do. How do i fix what i dont know is wrong. You ask why i dont tell you things or why do i lie to you. I dont lie, i tell you what you want to hear. I dont want to fight, you told me you wanted something else, that someone else made you happier. I want you to be happy so i tell you i dont care because i would do and say anything to stay apart of your life. I love seeing you the first thing in the morning and the moment i walk through the door after work and the last thing before i go to bed. I dont want to be not there. You ask me why i and yelling, because sometimes i feel like you just dont hear me. Sometimes i feel like i dont matter, at least how i feel doesn't. You ask why i dont tell you how i feel, everytime i start to you make me feel guilty because you get upset or tell me i'm making you feel bad. I'm just trying to be honest, but that seems to get me nowhere, and you get upset when you find out that i have not been completly honest about how i feel. I try to tell you the best way i know how through the things i write but you dont see that for what it is, do you realize what my tattoo means to me. I dont even care anymore if you understand what you mean to me i am tired of trying so hard to tell you and feeling like you just dont care.

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There was a time when i thought that there was no way out. That if i drank enough it would all go away. Every time i picked up a bottle it was to relieve my pain. It would go away for a little while but it was never gone. It haunts me every day. It taunts me and it usually wins. I never did quit drinking i just watch myself very carefully. I know my limits, that does not mean i can control myself it just makes me more aware of what i am doing so i dont get out me control.

Addiction

I stop and think what if it happens again. What will i tell my kids, what will i tell her. I could not take the disappointment in their faces. How would i tell them daddy screwed up and may not be around any more. When they ask why daddy why what would i tell them. Do i tell them this is your fault that the way you treat me is the reason i do these things. Do i continue to protect you so they do not grow to hate you the way i do. People look at me and say what could have been so horrible, his parents raised him right. I never saw anything wrong. From the outside looking in you would not see what i felt, some say it's all in your head you make these things all up in your head. I hate all the things that i did and all the things that people saw to me. You tried to protect me at every turn but you never protected me from him. You let him mentally abuse me and every time he hit me he used the scriptures as an excuse and you let him. You always talked about how much you regret what happen to my brother and you never wanted to loose me the way, but you basically murdered me. I an dead to you. You dont even call my children you want no part of them because not cant stand to see what kind of job i have done with my kids. A job that you could not do with me. I look at my kids and i see what i swore i would never be. I swore that i would never be like you and him. I know that my kids will never look at me the way i look at the two of you. I dont forgive you and i may never. What i do know is that i can not ever be you. I love my children and there is nothing they could do to make me turn my back on them. You always you used say you'll understand when you have your own children. You were part right there are some things i do understand but i still do not understand why and how you could turn your back on me the way you did. I hate you and the things that i have done because me you. You may never see me again but i will asure you that i will never see you again.

I want it all

I want it all. I want her for all the time. I want to know what she is thinking. I want to know how she is feeling. I want to feel her touch. I want to kiss her lips. I want her love. I want her to lay with me. I want to put my arms around her and fall asleep with her. She makes me feel alive. She makes me want to go out and do something wild, crazy and outragous. I want her name embeded on my heart. I want her wish to be my command. I want it all. I want her all to be mine.

Do you ever wonder

Do you ever wonder what could have been. Do you ever stop and think maybe i should have done that differently. Do you wonder what it would have been like if they actually cared. Do you stop and think maybe i should cal them, maybe i'll be the bigger person and do the right thing. Do you act on that feeling or do you hold your grudge and wait for them. Do you ever wonder what you will do when that day comes when they are on longer here. How do you really feel, after all these years they can still get to you. Do you wonder what if you just called laided it all out and them just hung up. Would they care? Would they call you back, would they finally get it?

If you can't understand then you don't deserve LOVE

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, and all of the others, including Love.

One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No I can't..There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place for you here."

Love decided to ask Vanity, who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness let me go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." It was an elder.

Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder her name.

When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way.

Love, realizing how much he owed the elder, asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who helped me?"
"It was Time", Knowledge answered. "Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me? Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

The First Time

The first time i saw her my heart skipped a beat, the sun made a perfect sunset, the heavens open up and sang. The first time i saw her i will never forget she was wearing that red body suit and blue jeans and when i looked at her it was like a movie where they are surrounded by a little hazy cloud. When i saw her for the first time i thought she was the most beautiful girl i had ever seen. When i saw her for the first time i thought she is way out me my league, i could never have a woman that beautiful. The first time i saw her every movement she made was perfect, every word she spoke was like a beautiful song. The first time i saw her i wanted to see her every day. I wanted her to be the first person i see in the morning and the last one i see at night. The first time i saw her was the first time i ever thought of myself getting married. The first time i saw her all this is true i knew i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you.

I think of you

When darkenss covers the sky I think of you the most. I think of the first time I saw you and how beautiful you looked, like an angel had fallen from heaven just for me. I think of the first time we kissed and how I never wanted it to end. I think of our first Christmas how special you made me feel. I think of the time I laid beside you and told you I would marry you someday. I think of the first movie we saw together and how I still to this day have not been able to watch the whole movie at once because I only watch it with you. I think about the time you told me you were pregnant with Mesa and how our lives would change forever. I think of the first time I saw her and she took me back to the first time I saw you. I remember how you used to drive me crazy with No Doubt and Chambawamba and how I could not stop listening to them when you were not there. I think about all the stupid things I have done and how much I have grown. I think about how much you must love me to still be here with me.

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Brewcity1212 Nuggets - 1/31/2008

Never let it be said that you were found not trying or not searching or not dreaming of the better life. Do not give in nor quit until you reach the top. Have the only one basic requirement that is necessary to produce this self-miracle of getting to the top: desire. Develop a sincere desire for getting to the top. Look for burning desire. A burning desire is the greatest motivator of every action. Use your discomfort and your desire to replace your income to propel you forward; take your lunch break to get outside and pass out cards in delis and coffee shops; make follow up calls on your cell; and use every spare moment you have towards building your business.

Desire overcomes disappointment

Let The Getting To The Top Process Begin:
Capture some of our thoughts, some of your thoughts and blend the two into new exciting ideas for your fabulous future. These ideas have the capacity to be life changing. As time goes by, we hope you will return to this book that started your own miracle process of going from where you are today to where you truly want to be.

Think of your life as a business
What would happen if you get reallyserious about getting to the top?
I know you have it in you to succeed in whatever you do!

Brewcity1212 Nuggets - 1/30/08

When you were little, did your mom or dad sing a song called Que sera sera? to you?Can you remember the words....'When I was just a little girl,I asked my mother, what would I be? Will I have children, will I be wealthy?Here's what she said to me....QUE SERA, SERA, whatever will be,will be...the future's not ours to see, Que sera sera!

Well, think about that song....WHATEVER will BE can BE what WE want it to be!

How many times have you let opportunity pass you by?How many times could you have made a differentdecision that would have taken you on a different path in life!So many of us have that song deeply imbedded in our subconscious.Take it out of your head and heart and ponder and debate what you think about it.

It was a cute tune, but the words that were put to that songinfluenced the baby boomer generation tremendously.Why do I believe it to be so? Many cultures ALL know that song by heart even thoughthey haven't sung it in 40 or 50 years!

What about an alternative,When Irish Eyes Are Smiling? All the World seems bright and gay, .......tis sure to steal your heart away....now that's a positive songthat many of us were taught that still after 40-50-60 or moreyears is still with us today. And THAT song was apositive song that we learned.

Sing the positive songs to yourself.
Drop the whatever will be will be mentality and step up!Make your life an incredible masterpiece. It's your turn to shine!

Brewcity1212 Nuggets - 1/29/08

There are a lot of components that must successfully come together to grow a huge business. One of the most important items that must take place is that you must work to achieve your aspirations.

If success was easy we'd all be driving our favorite Ferrari and livingour lives in the fast lane.

Take a moment to think about some of the greatest business ownersof our time.

Bill Gates
John Chambers
Donald Trump
Oprah Winfrey

This prominent list could go on for quite some time. What do these leaders have in common? They've all worked their tails off to obtainthe successes they've accomplished. They're all extremely driven. Putting in long days and countless hours is a daily routine for them. They never stop.

There's also another item that can't be overlooked when discussing leadersand driven inspirations. They all have a "WHY".

They all have something that motivates them to no end. Something that keeps them going. Day after day. It has nothing to do with the creation of wealth.What keeps you going? Is it your children and providing them with a better future? Are you passionate about your products and services? Maybe you have grandchildren. Regardless of what makes you 'tick', you must have a strong reason 'why'. You'll have good days and bad ones. It's your 'why'that will give you the strength to pull through those rough days.

Ultimately, the success of the wealthy (and yours too) boils down to 2 critical things:

1. They're persistent and don't give up. Nothing stops them. Whether it's things taking place in their personal life, financial woes, personal and financial loss, etc. It makes no difference. They continue to preservere and bouce back like a yo yo. Are you persistant? Do you easily give up and call it quits after a setback?

2. They understand the relevance of helping others. They thoroughly comprehend "The Law Of Success". The more they give back and help others they more they will receive in return. It's crazy how it works, but it's the absolute truth. They know that their success, in large part, boils down to one simple question, "How many other lives have they changed?" Are you positively having an impact on other people? Do you reach and go out of your way to assist others in their aspirations and dreams?

Ultimately, success is defined by how you responded to those 2 prior questions.Growing a business takes a tremendous amount of "doing". NOT, thinking about"doing".

How many others do you plan on helping others today, tomorrow and for the month?People truly need and desire to have your products and services. Are you going toreach out and help them find what you already have? It makes no difference whatyou're marketing. Juice, vitamins, internet security, etc...people need what you have.It's your job to find those people (or have them find you, which I'll address in an upcoming issue) and provide them with what they're looking for.

In closing, I present you with a small "to do list". Although extremely simple, this is critical to your success. Doing these items will allow you to be more focusedand have a better grasp on your objectives:

1. Create your reason "why". What keeps you motivated? What drives you tonot stop and to never give up?

2. Ask yourself, "How many people you're going to help?" For the day, week and month.Baby steps here. It must be realistic. Something you know without doubt that you're completely capable of accomplishing. There's nothing wrong with starting out with extremely small numbers here. The important thing is that you start. Today. Not tomorrow. We all have reasons and excuses why we can't or why we won't do something.If your "why" is strong enough you will prevail. Get it done. Make it happen. Positivelyinfluence the lives of those around you.

Brewcity1212 Nuggets - 1/28/08

When faced with a challenge you have two choices:

1. Quit and walk away.
2. Stay and meet the challenge head on.

Don't stay down. Winners are seldom discouraged - at least not for long.
Never give up, your dreams are going to see you through, I promise.

You might get down occassionally, burned out, but do not let it control you or your results.

Analyze the challenge, learn from it, and then get on with the business of winning.

Critics are everywhere - just keep helping those who want your leadership and let go of those who do not. Letting go of critics gives them nothing to hold on to and they disappear sooner or later.

You will still grow and prosper without the critics.
It's okay. They're not required.
You're okay. Just get Fired up!

You'll be fine.

Never give up - your dreams are going to see you through.

Ignite your passion and Fire up!

Brewcity Nuggests - 1/24/2008

Positive action can mean so many things...

Listening and learning from thosewho are getting the results you want,staying fired up, passing out more business cards,talking to prospects,advertising, purchasing leads,asking for more referrals, reading a powerfulNetwork Marketing book, investing inattending a seminar that could change your life.

Going totally into high gear to get to the top of your pay plan....so isn't it time that you take your future into your own hands?

Start a recruiting explosion.

Be the onethat says, "I am so glad I did!"

Instead of those who say,"Oh how I wish I had!"

And....take it from the top....you will be so glad you focused on prospecting, recruiting and training. So smart! Life is so short, focus on building your future now...you will truly be so glad you did!

4 Simple steps to get to the top:
1. Work at it.
2. Work hard at it.
3. Work every day at it.
4. Work some more at it.

Welcome to ths Start of a NEW Day

We have begun a new day here at Brewcity1212. We wanted a change, we wanted to take control of our life's, we wanted to be our own boss. We wanted to get up whenever we wanted, spend time with our kids, go on vacation just because we can. We wanted to create our own wealth.

What does wealth mean to you? Does it mean making lots of money, does it mean owning fancy cars, a big house, maybe even a vacation home?

Wealth for us means being able to attend our kids basketball or volleyball game. Wealth means being able to have the means to do what you want when you want.

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